Serious(gay) post: I struggle with attention seeking behavior.
1 2019-05-25 by BeigeFrequency
No surprise, I know. I don't do it in real life, but online I frequently find myself fighting the urge to do something for the sake of getting attention. I think having an "audience" that will quickly and viciously call me out helps but even at my tiny level of celebrity, there are still people who shower me with praise. Knowing I can act out and get a reaction is really tempting even if I know I will regret it later.
And yes, this post technically is a way of getting attention but I'm just frustrated and wanted to say this in a place that wouldn't love bomb me for being brave or whatever.
78 comments
1 Bakersfield__Chimp 2019-05-25
Nigger, this is some very gay shit.
1 Amish_Supremacist 2019-05-25
maybe he's doing a Henry Rollins meme
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
You'd know because I would have included a mediocre drawing
1 Fluxywild 2019-05-25
Do you wish your mom was terry clifford?
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
Can I have a second mom who is Terry Clifford
1 Dr-Seepage 2019-05-25
Im sure if you offered some cash to braunheiser for a new chair axle he'd loan her to you
1 throwawawyy2 2019-05-25
Terry can be your 2nd, 3rd and 4th mother. And not cause of her rubenesque figure but because she is very motherly and caring.
1 BeefersForAutism 2019-05-25
If you ended your life no one would even care.
1 Bakersfield__Chimp 2019-05-25
I don't think that's true.
1 BeefersForAutism 2019-05-25
SShhhh...
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
Technically there are a couple, which is why I'm still hangin' on
1 QuantumDice 2019-05-25
I'm just waiting for the E-Rock/Shawn F compilation...
1 BeefersForAutism 2019-05-25
Would you consider becoming the next emo rapper? The lifestyle ends tragically, but you'll get some extra clout if you're looking for it...
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
I don't have herpes so that isn't an option
1 iWhoreSchortSchorts 2019-05-25
I believe in you plus it’s not that hard to contract herpes.
1 ButtFarts2019 2019-05-25
A fellow man of culture.
1 PsychopathyRed 2019-05-25
Beige, for real, you're a nice guy and it doesn't matter that you have flaws because everyone has them (except for Mel).
I think this video will clear up your problems.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T0ZKUUvDV88
1 literalotherkin 2019-05-25
I was thinking the same thing. There was this guy on Tefft's Discord I was friends with who struggled with being bi -- he completely agreed with us but it was a thing he had -- and it was the same with him. Chronic narcissism.
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
I'm not bi. I could suck a dick right now and probably not enjoy it
1 SandyKanesHemorrhoid 2019-05-25
Liar whore and you know it.
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
Damn, did you just have that video in the can?
I've been trying to deal with the fact that I am a narcissist. I don't know about homosexual thing though. I'm attracted to women predominantly. I guess there are some guys that are okay but it's not something I have any desire for.
1 PsychopathyRed 2019-05-25
Perhaps what has happened to you is that you've made harsh critiques of all the targets in your documentaries - and maybe in regular life too, I have no idea - and you've spent so much negative energy that now you see everything as bad and thus unworthy of your presence.
Maybe that's what has happened to all of us. Though I must admit, I love hating people for no good reason.
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
Maybe.
1 billdipshitbellamy 2019-05-25
It's a bit of a scandal that the most scientifically effective methods for curing depression are largely unknown to its sufferers. But if you look up positive neuroplasticity, there are guides to physically change your brain to a more resilient and peaceful state. Emotions can be regulated and gradually transformed into their healthier alternative with just minutes a day of work (meditation, etc.). Eventually, this will just be considered the new exercise we're all supposed to be doing, because technology is making us crazy.
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
I'm not going to watch your sissy hypnosis videos, bro
1 FanOfBenjamin72 2019-05-25
Stop trying to be a tough guy, you reached out to ppl, they try to help you and you act like a faggot.
1 OlGravylegz 2019-05-25
Just smile and nod at the feedback, attention seeking queer
1 CarolMaxheinie 2019-05-25
“Predominantly”
Get that hole blown out a few dozen times then call me 🤙. I think you found your solution.
1 McGowan9 2019-05-25
I assume, because they're both wearing white jeans, that the two guys in that video are homosexuals too.
1 JansHammer 2019-05-25
meditate and unplug for a few hours a day. go to a titty bar and eat at the lunch buffet...live.
1 MrFeedYoNana 2019-05-25
Here's my tip of the day: if you local all-nude strip club turns you away because of a "no sweatpants" policy, try returning in basketball shorts.
1 StentFeznor 2019-05-25
At least you're self-aware enough to acknowledge it.
1 debonairgarbage 2019-05-25
No, it would be far better if he wasn't self-aware because then we wouldn't have to read this gay bullshit.
1 Doodoflife 2019-05-25
Like we've been saying all along, #1 Porsalin and #2 Beige.
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
jeez just put the knife in my heart
1 lowendranger 2019-05-25
Nigga you gay
1 Gainsgoham 2019-05-25
In a few months you'll be posting you getting bbc facials like bams_seed
1 MrStealYourVape 2019-05-25
That's womanly behavior, which makes sense because you more than likely have low testosterone going by your less than deep voice.
Ask Joe Cumia if he can hook you up.
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
I'm not swapping needles with Joe "that's more cum than I've ever seen in my entire life" Cumia
1 MrStealYourVape 2019-05-25
In all seriousness, how old are you? Early 20s? Narcissism usually dies down around age 27 or 28 or so. At least it did for me and I'm the only person who matters.
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
getting awfully close to that cutoff lol
1 itrits 2019-05-25
The title was no joke.. this is seriously fucking gay.
Whassamattawitchu
1 debonairgarbage 2019-05-25
You should delete this and pretend it never happened. I'll always remember what a faggot you are, though.
1 ichise8 2019-05-25
i knew this already, pal. this is why you accuse me of being attention-seeking at every turn, pal. it is by the book projection, chum. i can smell it out a mile away, fella. its not just you though, theres a few faggots in here worse-off than you. im merely spreading the truth here. ill drop a few nuggets of truth in your knapsack chum, you seem lost
you need god, pal. you are your own god and you are violently sucking your own ballsack while a crowd of faggots applauds you. your self obsession knows no bounds, chum. is it really a surprise why you identify so much with gregg "opie" hughes? the womanly narcissist who made everything about him? i mean come on folks. you cannot be above god, fella. stop masturbating, literally and figuratively, pal.
also, opie is an active pedophile
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
Maybe god sent you to test me. If I can resist responding to your comments then maybe I can reduce my narcissistic tendencies.
1 ichise8 2019-05-25
more narcissism, pal. the world is just here to serve you, is that it pal? im trying to help here, chum. im sure you have very low impulse control, pal. i would start by ceasing porn watching (which im sure is very rapey in your case), then move on to ceasing masturbation
cease your celebration of self, pal, and free yourself of temporal sin. also, gregg "opie" hughes is a coprophilic pedophile
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
Oh, you. I get that you're embarrassed that your purpose on this earth revolves around me but it's nothing to be embarrassed about. We all have our roles. Your role just happens to be making me a better person by testing me. .
1 ichise8 2019-05-25
ill pray for you, but i fear youre forever stuck. the woman in you is holding on too tightly, pal
also, opie is an active pedophile
1 superheater187 2019-05-25
I usually hate your posts but that last line after all that came before made me laugh
1 Phantas_Magorical 2019-05-25
We're back on track now
1 debonairgarbage 2019-05-25
this jerkoff knows what's up. solid assessment. god is for queers though.
1 killgav 2019-05-25
I see you and porsalin as serial killers that communicate in news papers like Hannibal and red dragon, I think that if one of you has a trigger compound media will be a bloodbath, have you tried crystal meth? I’ve heard it’s great for the complexion.
1 SpikeSpiegel__ 2019-05-25
I think it’s the contrast between who you are IRL and who you are online.
I’m assuming you’re a bit of a loser IRL but feel godlike online - your attention seeking behaviour is just you indulging in who you think you deserve to be all the time.
Try to balance it out where you don’t feel like you’re completely overshadowed IRL by your subjectively statured presence online. You’re less likely to seek dopamine here once you’ve resolved that.
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
Maybe. I think it might have had something to do with my experience in school as a kid. I was tested and told I have an IQ of 160. For my entire life, everyone around me has said I'm exceptionally smart and gifted, even people who are actually exceptionally smart. And I think it gave me some kind of complex.
1 debonairgarbage 2019-05-25
Not smart enough to shut your gay face up about your womanly emotions.
1 SpikeSpiegel__ 2019-05-25
No one believes you have an IQ of 160.
Jesus - am I being trolled right now? Am I not getting the bit or something?
Please delete this comment if you’re actually being serious. I don’t want the others to see you saying this shit.
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
No. I don't believe I have an IQ of 160 either, but that is what I was told as a child. I'm not trying to brag, I've just literally been told throughout my entire life that I'm very intelligent and gifted. I think that has messed with my head,
1 SpikeSpiegel__ 2019-05-25
Please just shut the fuck up.
1 BeigeFrequency 2019-05-25
That is actually very hard.
1 turquoise_jetson 2019-05-25
Just like the dicks you take up the ass.
1 TheGhostOfAbeVigoda 2019-05-25
I tell my best friend's kid that she's intelligent and gifted and she's a bit of a fucking dunce.
1 liljoeyk 2019-05-25
I know the feeling - try being 6'1"
1 Phantas_Magorical 2019-05-25
In the end it's what you do with that Vos level of IQ. I'd recommend finding ways to make yourself not feel like such a smartass.
Try playing chess to realize how fucking stupid you are. Then you find a way to implement the lessons you learn from that in life. It can help you understand your first immediate thought isn't necessarily the best decision to make. This is also the womanly approach.
The logical male approach should be to keep everything you said in the vault and have supreme confidence in all of your decisions. This delving into the meta stuff wouldn't fly in a normal conversation without you looking like a total faggot. Best to just leave it alone and live for yourself in the moment..
1 Ralph_Cifaretto 2019-05-25
>celebrity
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pwpp-RxgJ-4
1 SpikeSpiegel__ 2019-05-25
Also, another clue to your delusion is your bravery in confidently posting this gay shit knowing that people won’t think you’re a complete faggot for doing so.
You’ve become the slightly talented loveable O&A guy that people will excuse for lame posts like this. The only reason I’m putting in the effort to write this is because I still like you regardless, but going down this road any further will probably eventually turn some people into actually thinking you’re a complete faggot.
My advice would be to keep these things to yourself because it’s pretty obvious to feel the way you do in your position and trying to be the relatable unashamed e-celeb sharing his deep feelings will only pay off if it’s isolated into rare moments like this.
People believe in you, especially because Porsalin became a total faggot. Just take some time to readjust your feelings privately and get back to being the dude who is respected for being slightly better than us.
1 gregoryjingles 2019-05-25
Dude, I figured we were all attention seeking faggots here. In a world where straight white males have ‘everything’. There is only our own boredom left to conquer. And what better way to feel alive in 2019 than to shout nigger until someone notices.
The only advice I can give in regards to your ‘celebrity’ (for a start never say that again) is to keep doing what you’re doing. As long as you continue to enact restraint in regards to your docs and YouTube channel then it doesn’t matter what you do here. As you said in the Schumer doc just do stuff you’re passionate about. Don’t over think it.
1 throwawawyy2 2019-05-25
In a world..... Where poc women control everything........... Theres still a place for straight white men........ Mel Gibson is....... The Poster.
In theaters july 2020.
1 TranthonyRapesKids 2019-05-25
This is the gayest shit you’ve ever posted nigger just stick to the docs
1 bigboy951 2019-05-25
this is fucking disgusting
1 traffich 2019-05-25
Who knew
1 deep_legal_shit 2019-05-25
why'd you leave mod?
1 DrSvarheeny 2019-05-25
Harness your gay behavior into continuing to make great documentaries.
Maybe someday you'll get so deep you'll make a documentary about yourself making a documentary about yourself.
See here, a fine film: "Synechdoche, New York" (https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Synecdoche,_New_York)
1 DOXXER100 2019-05-25
Craving Attention? Here, have a heaping helping of the attention I get here. I’ll trade you for some of yours. #Balance #NoBonkBonk
1 PatrickSSTomlinson 2019-05-25
Youre more narcissistic and less self aware than anyone ive seen. I cant wait for your old ass to have a heart attack. Layla says the same thing.
1 DOXXER100 2019-05-25
You’ve never seen me. I won’t die anytime soon, and no, she loves me. A lot.
You’re not a very experienced troll, are you? Very weak. Keep trying though. Hey! Have a nice holiday weekend!! I will!!!
1 YangtzeRiverChina 2019-05-25
You can spew PR all you want, doesn't change the fact that you're a 60 year old ex-druggie who eats terrible food all the time. You've got less than 2 decades tops, and you STILL spend your time ineffectually fighting with a message board. Retard
1 turquoise_jetson 2019-05-25
Don't listen to all these haters. This was very stunning and brave of you to come out of the closet here for us. Only a real man's man would be courageous enough to bare his true emotions. I for one applaud you on your journey with your newfound freedom and I look forward to seeing you at Pride next year.
1 Amish_Supremacist 2019-05-25
this thread went as well as could be expected I guess