chickeeeeeeenburger

Ok I am sitting here trying to piece together exactly what is going through my mind and what is a thought that i have forced into my mind. what popped in there on its own and what did I force there? I think i have a social disorder and several mental disorders that i need o realize that are real and just not a word given to you because of symptoms. I guess symptons point to one word or another but aren't all people different. hmmmmmmm

practicing medicine is just that, practicing medicine…even with psychiatry. what combination of pills will ultimately keep us all from jumping. I went on the road in march and have had an experience now on the road. I truley don't know if I like it. that sucks. I can do it…..but i don't truley know if I want to do it. what else will i do if i do not do this? shit I dont know. i am mean, moody and unpredictable right now and I guess that is supposed to be a comedian…..fuck that. I have turned bitter towards it because i am not young and naive like I was when i started. I know where it leads and I know what comes from the work you put in. More roadwork, more money, films and television. sounds cool huh? the movie part is cool….thats about it. Even that blows the sausage some time. but ok i dont think i could ever get tired of films. but(fuck capitalization and form right now. not so easy to get films. especially when everyone that works for you thinks you are unpredictable and will dissapear for years at a time. (I do though) there has got to be something else interesting on this earth for me to do….something…shit. I have to find it. anyone have any career ideas or options for me. I am taking advice from all as long as they are serious about it. oh well, know one will read this anyway. I am a flake

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