Before I get torn into on here, can you all hear me out? Listening to Jimmy's advice show I can definitely relate to you so I hope I can get some guidance. My girlfriend (1 year younger than me) broke up with me at the end of October. The reason being at the end of August she went of to to college and I live in our hometown, I don't go to school, love in a 2 room appt, and work overnights at a grouphome. We basically just grew apart and she wanted to break up mid-Septbember, but she stick it out a month and a half for me and gave us an honest chance to rekindle it but it didn't work out. Im very thankful that she did that though. It's been 2 months and I just feel worse and worse. We dated for 8 1/2 months and I know to some that's nothing but it was my first serious relationship and she helped me overcome my depression to a major extent. Now I'm alone, and she wants nothing to do to me. I've texted her a couple of times and she seems to resent and it's like she hates my guts. And what hurts the most is knowing that her life is moving in an opposite direction than mine. Everytime I know that she's home from school it gets worse because it kills me that I can't see her. On New Years Eve I was at a party and she showed up and she was deliberately avoiding me, so I decided to just go up and say "hi" just to not make things so awkward and then she ended up running away, I just wanted to talk to her an I understand that the situation was not a good one to talk, but I really just wanted to say "hi" and not make things awkward. I talked to her friends to see of I did anything and to see how she was doing since she wouldn't talk to me and ended up leaving. We ended up getting together to talk the next day and all I really wanted was proper closure with her and to see if there was a chance that we could still be friends, but she ended up telling me that I need to grow up and that I'm a girl and that she doesn't want to be friends, and doesn't care about me as a person anymore even. And I can't say I dot blame her. I just feel bad because I really just wanted to end things as a gentleman and let her know that I'll still be there for her but she wanted to hear none of it. The past 2 months have been the most miserable of my life, and on Thanksgiving I tried to kill myself. I know how pathetic this entire thing is, but I just want to know if there's anything I can do to make it better?