Kidnap the kid but make it look like a murder-suicide so she's all sad while you take junior to an island and live as fishermen and you take a local for a new wife and be all happy forever.
Sometimes I feel this way, but sometimes I want to hurt them for how badly they treated me and others in my family at certain times in our family history. I told my mom I sometimes want to call her into my room, put a bunch of heavy obstructions between the entrance and myself and do it so she has to watch. Good times. Love having an abusive mother and a father than died early on.
And then in the hospital the janitors would go into the closet and get these disposable velcro mop heads that I thought were gonna be used to strap me down and I'd panic and get hit with the chemical restraints anyways. Good memories
The modern, more humane way of controlling crazy people. They inject you with drugs to sedate you and give you silly legs so you can't walk. I dont go down easy, though. When they weigh me at intake I tell them bump it up a couple dozen lbs so I get a sufficient dose.
today on tv i watched the star trek where worf gets crippled and wants to kill himself but decides not to because its more difficult to live than to die and the easy way is for faggots
Worf is my least favorite. How that bushy eyebrow turd ended up taking a giant dump on DS9 is still an incomprehensible mystery to me. Worf is only good when he is getting shit on by Picard. Useless. And any Worf-centric episode is pure cringe. That two-parter where Worf's "brother" is shepherding refugees is the worst two-parter in Trek and it is not close.
I love next gen, too, but the shitty parts chap my ass because the rest of the show is so great.
Worf's bro is actually a great character actor, although he is not given anything to work with in that two-parter, and I'd totally forgotten he was in the modern cinema classic The Rock. Good pull.
The Alexander story arc is just depressing. Worf is such a failure as a father and there's nothing more cringe-inducing than the various Worf romance subplots. Jadzia was hot, sure, but Terry Farrell is a garbage-tier actress and is one note as fuck, so watching her and Worf have negative a billion chemistry just skull fucked DS9.
The series run of DS9 really is begging for a recut that takes out almost all of Worf's participation, plays down Jadzia, totally eliminates Ezri because she's shit, too, and also chops a lot of Odo because I found his character to be pretty lame if he wasn't fucking with Quark. Again, the Odo / Kira romance was fucking dreck and nonsensical. I almost want to do it myself because of how much some of the series bothers me. The whole Dominion war angle is so strong and amazing with the shades of grey and the philosophy of Trek being stretched and really tested but then you get a bullshit baseball episode or some B plot of Worf and Jadzia and it just grinds the amazing momentum to an absolute halt.
Even ironically, this is hurtful to the core of my being. I fucking hate the baby talking, useless, soy-soaked babble that passes for conversation in the main subreddits of this garbage pile of a website. The knowledge that most of humanity is so deeply faggoty just pierces the veil of any illusion that people are mostly ok. People are shit. 99.99999999% of these hunks of shizer are an embarrassment to the grand mystery of creation. It undermines my ability to try and put something good into the world. I don't want to reproduce or create or really do anything other than flood my bloodstream with narcotics because of the shame that is existing.
So I'm sorry but I don't have anything for you today, brotherman.
Thanks, Brothaman. That was me on Wellbutrin. It was a total nightmare. This stuff has probably saved my life, though. A good doctor makes all the difference.
No, haven’t gained any weight. It’s given me my first respite from crushing anxiety ever. It’s actually allowed me to find some motivation to improve myself. So far, so good, but thanks a lot man.
The thoughts will always be there. But actually doing it, the fact that my parents are still alive along with my brother and niece and nephew means I can't. I'm not that greedy.
I did a cycle of Test @750mg pw, using two different ugls, one at 500mg and the other at 250mg, using the 250mg Enanthate one as a base because I knew it was legit, backed by bloods. Turned out the other labs sustanon I ran for the other 500mg was bunk (backed by bloods that came back indicating I was in range you'd expect from 250mg test).
I also ran Tren Ace @100mg per day for two weeks, then dropped it to 75mg per day for the next two as the sides were fucked. Couldn't sleep more than 3 hours even with serequol @300mg. Interfered with my diet and training because I couldn't be fuked eating or training due to exhaustion.
My only advice would be inject Tren Ace ED or Max 36 hours to maintain better plasma levels. Every two days is beyond the half life, it isn't completely eliminated, but it dips by over 50% by 48 hours, causing peaks and troughs that aren't optimal for that compound.
Also, are you running Tren Ace for the whole 16 weeks? If so, get your blood work done because your lipids might take a very big hit. Often is the case (but not always) when you run it longer than 4 - 6 weeks. It's very effective as a finisher (ie last 4 weeks).
How's the var? Legit? Also consider doing two Test E injections 3.5 days apart per week, again for optimal blood plasma levels so they aren't dipping and roller coastering.
I just scored a custom made (from my trusted brewer) test decanoate dosed at 500mg for my cruise, 1ml every two weeks! Saves a ton of pinning, though I imagine the pip will be fucked due to high solvents.
Planning a big test and nandralone cycle these coming months. Kick-start it with 50mg a day anadrol, run Deca for 16 weeks @ 600mg and test @500mg pw. Can't wait to blow up and regain some weight after this accident I had that's kept me from training.
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1 AIIenRicketts 2019-05-01
I think there’s real potential for this to become a regular feature. What do you say, fellas?
1 McGowan9 2019-05-01
I hope you sit on a rattlesnake.
1 AIIenRicketts 2019-05-01
I suspect I haven’t made the wisest decision wandering this far from the trail alone. You may get your wish.
1 Obscurella 2019-05-01
I have to witness their deaths
1 AIIenRicketts 2019-05-01
true r/opienanthony zen
1 joecumialikestofelch 2019-05-01
Look at Alan Watts over here.
1 WineDineShootMyNine 2019-05-01
I just don't want to I hurt my siblings and mom by doing it. That's pretty much the only reason.
1 AIIenRicketts 2019-05-01
At least they’re not the reason you want to, brothaman. You may be poor in happiness but rich in family.
1 WineDineShootMyNine 2019-05-01
Thanks, friend.
1 Anarox 2019-05-01
Kid for me, my wife deserves a good " you drove me to this" suicide note but I can't do that to my kid.
1 I_Hate_Knickers_3 2019-05-01
Kidnap the kid but make it look like a murder-suicide so she's all sad while you take junior to an island and live as fishermen and you take a local for a new wife and be all happy forever.
:)
1 burlapsack69 2019-05-01
Why not just kill her instead?
1 Patrickisapedo 2019-05-01
Sometimes I feel this way, but sometimes I want to hurt them for how badly they treated me and others in my family at certain times in our family history. I told my mom I sometimes want to call her into my room, put a bunch of heavy obstructions between the entrance and myself and do it so she has to watch. Good times. Love having an abusive mother and a father than died early on.
1 I_Hate_Knickers_3 2019-05-01
:'(
1 AirBuddDwyer 2019-05-01
Melodramatic homoqueersicle
1 ants_ccw_permit 2019-05-01
The knowledge that the so called 72 hour hold at the mental hospital is more like 12 days.
1 AIIenRicketts 2019-05-01
I’m glad the mental health services in your city are working for you, sis. Remember, they only gangstalk because they care.
1 ants_ccw_permit 2019-05-01
Yeh I was addressing them through a camera in a reserved parking space sign and an ambulance came and got me within minites... they're crazy efficient
1 Mod_Impersonator 2019-05-01
I'm going to assume this means you were screaming at a reserved parking sign for an hour and someone called 911.
1 ants_ccw_permit 2019-05-01
And then in the hospital the janitors would go into the closet and get these disposable velcro mop heads that I thought were gonna be used to strap me down and I'd panic and get hit with the chemical restraints anyways. Good memories
1 Mod_Impersonator 2019-05-01
I'd bet there was some sort of Buck from Kill Bill situation going on.
1 BarryMcCaulkener 2019-05-01
Pardon me for interrupting this scintillating confab, but what in tarnation is a "chemical restraint? Thank you, please drive through.
1 ants_ccw_permit 2019-05-01
The modern, more humane way of controlling crazy people. They inject you with drugs to sedate you and give you silly legs so you can't walk. I dont go down easy, though. When they weigh me at intake I tell them bump it up a couple dozen lbs so I get a sufficient dose.
1 BarryMcCaulkener 2019-05-01
Ah. Thank you for the insight. Hope this finds you well.
1 I_Hate_Knickers_3 2019-05-01
That's not what I've heard.
;)
1 GunClubVRMod 2019-05-01
You really give CPS everything they need in writing.
1 Shacomybrand 2019-05-01
My total indifference for either living or dying.
1 AIIenRicketts 2019-05-01
Maybe caring is truth death.
1 OutlawMemer 2019-05-01
It is.
1 call_me_winston 2019-05-01
today on tv i watched the star trek where worf gets crippled and wants to kill himself but decides not to because its more difficult to live than to die and the easy way is for faggots
also i have literally 3 gallons of whiskey
once more, with feeling
1 AIIenRicketts 2019-05-01
measuring whiskey with imperial units is a good reason to live, brothaman
1 BarryMcCaulkener 2019-05-01
Worf is my least favorite. How that bushy eyebrow turd ended up taking a giant dump on DS9 is still an incomprehensible mystery to me. Worf is only good when he is getting shit on by Picard. Useless. And any Worf-centric episode is pure cringe. That two-parter where Worf's "brother" is shepherding refugees is the worst two-parter in Trek and it is not close.
1 I_Hate_Knickers_3 2019-05-01
His brother is the guy who says " I don't like soft assed shit " to Nic Cage in The Rock.
I liked when Warf would get all annoyed and his little face would get stern.
STTNG is great.
1 BarryMcCaulkener 2019-05-01
I love next gen, too, but the shitty parts chap my ass because the rest of the show is so great.
Worf's bro is actually a great character actor, although he is not given anything to work with in that two-parter, and I'd totally forgotten he was in the modern cinema classic The Rock. Good pull.
1 DeadWithoutMyDavid 2019-05-01
Remember Worf's little queer-boy son Alexander who later reappeared in DS9 as an incompetent crew member of a Klingon ship
1 BarryMcCaulkener 2019-05-01
The Alexander story arc is just depressing. Worf is such a failure as a father and there's nothing more cringe-inducing than the various Worf romance subplots. Jadzia was hot, sure, but Terry Farrell is a garbage-tier actress and is one note as fuck, so watching her and Worf have negative a billion chemistry just skull fucked DS9.
The series run of DS9 really is begging for a recut that takes out almost all of Worf's participation, plays down Jadzia, totally eliminates Ezri because she's shit, too, and also chops a lot of Odo because I found his character to be pretty lame if he wasn't fucking with Quark. Again, the Odo / Kira romance was fucking dreck and nonsensical. I almost want to do it myself because of how much some of the series bothers me. The whole Dominion war angle is so strong and amazing with the shades of grey and the philosophy of Trek being stretched and really tested but then you get a bullshit baseball episode or some B plot of Worf and Jadzia and it just grinds the amazing momentum to an absolute halt.
1 DeadWithoutMyDavid 2019-05-01
Kind of the essence of all Star Trek for me. Compelling space conflict mixed with cornball quasi-communist feel-good shit.
1 Cptbaldopie 2019-05-01
He was the worst character ever.
1 Mod_Impersonator 2019-05-01
Puppers and doggos, fren.
1 NanaOnADiet 2019-05-01
this
1 BarryMcCaulkener 2019-05-01
Even ironically, this is hurtful to the core of my being. I fucking hate the baby talking, useless, soy-soaked babble that passes for conversation in the main subreddits of this garbage pile of a website. The knowledge that most of humanity is so deeply faggoty just pierces the veil of any illusion that people are mostly ok. People are shit. 99.99999999% of these hunks of shizer are an embarrassment to the grand mystery of creation. It undermines my ability to try and put something good into the world. I don't want to reproduce or create or really do anything other than flood my bloodstream with narcotics because of the shame that is existing.
So I'm sorry but I don't have anything for you today, brotherman.
1 Fatty_Pneumonia 2019-05-01
Quetiapine and Sertraline.
1 AIIenRicketts 2019-05-01
Don’t wanna be a downer on this fine day but quetiapine fucked me up. I haven’t taken it and years and still shake. Be safe, brothaman.
1 Fatty_Pneumonia 2019-05-01
Thanks, Brothaman. That was me on Wellbutrin. It was a total nightmare. This stuff has probably saved my life, though. A good doctor makes all the difference.
1 deep_legal_shit 2019-05-01
damn you were on shit that hard and you still managed to get riled up on reddit?
1 AIIenRicketts 2019-05-01
I think I got off of it before I was regularly posting.
1 Anarox 2019-05-01
You gained weight on it? I hate it tbh. Never used it but I have serveral patients using it. Change to voxra
1 Fatty_Pneumonia 2019-05-01
No, haven’t gained any weight. It’s given me my first respite from crushing anxiety ever. It’s actually allowed me to find some motivation to improve myself. So far, so good, but thanks a lot man.
1 pm_pasta_on_ur_tits 2019-05-01
Patients? I hope you're not a doctor, are you..?
1 tranthasourus 2019-05-01
My gf
1 nomadiqqq2 2019-05-01
I hope she leaves you.
1 BarryMcCaulkener 2019-05-01
And then dies in a fiery conflagration.
1 aRTie02150 2019-05-01
The thoughts will always be there. But actually doing it, the fact that my parents are still alive along with my brother and niece and nephew means I can't. I'm not that greedy.
1 SamsSeedWhiteKnight 2019-05-01
You are great person.
1 Lemmy46 2019-05-01
Hold on, cowboy. There’s a NEW Mexico?
1 LoouisCuCkpartDeux 2019-05-01
Can you do something for me? Try to whistle at night and see if a skinwalker comes to you?
1 AIIenRicketts 2019-05-01
no, just mexicans
1 fatHormoneAbuser 2019-05-01
I’m in the second week of a very expensive cutting cycle. If I’m gunna off myself, I’ll leave behind a jacked corpse.
1 Not_My_Real_Acct_ 2019-05-01
That's what Mexico is for!
1 OpieHasTits 2019-05-01
What are you running, brothaman?
1 fatHormoneAbuser 2019-05-01
Test e250 once a week
Tren ace 100 every other day
70 mgs anavar every day
4ius somotropin gh every day for 6 months. The cycle is 16 weeks
1 OpieHasTits 2019-05-01
I did a cycle of Test @750mg pw, using two different ugls, one at 500mg and the other at 250mg, using the 250mg Enanthate one as a base because I knew it was legit, backed by bloods. Turned out the other labs sustanon I ran for the other 500mg was bunk (backed by bloods that came back indicating I was in range you'd expect from 250mg test).
I also ran Tren Ace @100mg per day for two weeks, then dropped it to 75mg per day for the next two as the sides were fucked. Couldn't sleep more than 3 hours even with serequol @300mg. Interfered with my diet and training because I couldn't be fuked eating or training due to exhaustion.
My only advice would be inject Tren Ace ED or Max 36 hours to maintain better plasma levels. Every two days is beyond the half life, it isn't completely eliminated, but it dips by over 50% by 48 hours, causing peaks and troughs that aren't optimal for that compound.
Also, are you running Tren Ace for the whole 16 weeks? If so, get your blood work done because your lipids might take a very big hit. Often is the case (but not always) when you run it longer than 4 - 6 weeks. It's very effective as a finisher (ie last 4 weeks).
How's the var? Legit? Also consider doing two Test E injections 3.5 days apart per week, again for optimal blood plasma levels so they aren't dipping and roller coastering.
I just scored a custom made (from my trusted brewer) test decanoate dosed at 500mg for my cruise, 1ml every two weeks! Saves a ton of pinning, though I imagine the pip will be fucked due to high solvents.
Planning a big test and nandralone cycle these coming months. Kick-start it with 50mg a day anadrol, run Deca for 16 weeks @ 600mg and test @500mg pw. Can't wait to blow up and regain some weight after this accident I had that's kept me from training.
1 diddlybooba 2019-05-01
I have to see the end of the Rocket saga
1 SirSodomy 2019-05-01
The fact that suicide is unpleasant and I’m a hedonist
1 revolvingmonk 2019-05-01
Waiting for your reaction when you see who got added as a fucking moderator of this sub.
1 AIIenRicketts 2019-05-01
Honestly my life is too busy right now to be as upset as I should be by this. The good news is that this sub is doomed. I appreciate the heads up lol.
1 TitsFawson 2019-05-01
Sean?
1 NanaOnADiet 2019-05-01
netflix
1 cQrPsE 2019-05-01
the thought of eternal rest is beautiful
1 marionssilverplatter 2019-05-01
I’d like to rewatch true detective season 1.